as of Dec.01,2009: SEMI-PUBLIC
To you who's reading this:

It's by the workings of destiny that made you encounter my journal. Maybe, through curiosity, maybe by a little yearning that we'd still be friends again. However, it is your choice to proceed. I have nothing much to offer you. It's either we've met or we haven't met yet.

THE THIRD IMPACT- if it's sweeter the second time around, then third time's a charm. This journal was created out of my desire to grow. It's also a way to know the people who are following you and to meet new friends. I call it the SUMMER SWITCH 'cause I change my journal every summer.

I'd be happy to let you know you're a part of me.

PRESENT INCARNATION- ordinary. I was once a fan of a famous Japanese talent management agency exclusively for males. I once loved them boys wearing all the colors in the wheel. The sparkly and shiny idol world was once the subject of my admiration. Not so long ago, the fairy tale ended. I need not elaborate on that. 


RULES:
1. The most important thing, do not add me if your reasons are shallow. I'm very serious although it's not that obvious.
2. I'm not a fan of a certain 10-member group. (: And if you happen to have something in mind, don't proceed if you feel we might not get along well.
3. Fellow fans of a disbanded 4-member group are very much welcome. YES, THE BEATLES!
4. Those who have had direct contact with me or were formerly my friends can freely add me or remind me to add them. 
5. Comment here. 

When I realized what 'awesome' meant....

I was like.....

And as they strut their stuff....

I was seriously in tears.

My feelings as of recent. Not totally jumping into the anigif bandwagon. (:

I PROBABLY WON'T BE ONLINE ON CHRISTMAS DAY, SO....
 

Is this for real? I just made one last year, and now..... XD TIME REALLY FLIES AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I tried writing corollaries to the hypothesis on time whether it is just an illusion or the illusion is reality. But I failed because I realized that the "me" from seven years ago is much capable of coming up with something more sensible. 1.) it might involve Mathematics | 2.) the 20-year-old has forgotten the useful scientific terms necessary to come up with a corollary | 3.) scientific names are now- e.g.: Altus vox {Shibutani Subaru} | 4.) the frequency of petit mal episodes. And then, there were people who friended me on Facebook, just to send me messages asking if I practice fortune-telling and divination (they've heard and I have no idea who told them!). They even asked me for my address, and were serious about going for a consultation. So I made another account. >_<; FYI: Idda De Jesus is no fortune-teller. Aura reading, anyone?

The introduction above has only 20% relevance to the real post. In my 8 years of being a fan, I can say that this isn't the best year (what do you call 2007?), but things I wished for like 'more exposure for my favorite people' or 'more fanservice' came true. And if I were that fortune teller they're looking for, I wouldn't get excited about stuff going on in my fandom. Without any further ado....

This isn't the best or even the gayest Christmas for me, but still, I have to celebrate because of the people I've met, the places I've been to, the things I learned and everything that makes the season worth celebrating for. Thank you!

( I made a X'mas card. Lookie. XD )

Happy Christmas!!

Now I want to go and visit Easter Island someday....just because of this. The view is just like you're from another world, even without leaving Earth. I know that when a picture captures a certain moment and it reveals something that hasn't been seen before, the probability of that moment to never happen again is bigger than the probability of it to repeat itself. I'm this astronomy buff since pre-school so I love anything that has something to do with planets, galaxies and otherworldly beings (I consider myself an alien because I hate the word "conform").

I had lots of astronomy books and the facts were sometimes redundant. That was the time of heavy and hard bound encyclopedia my mother invested on because she wanted me to become bright. XD The daughter did very well in Science, History, Linguistics, Arts and Literature and was even considered highly athletic, BUT FAILED MISERABLY IN MATH. The number of Jupiter, Neptune and Saturn's moons changed, Pluto's status was changed to that of a large dwarf planet (Aww...) or a minor planet and some more discoveries of the latest stuff used in watching the skies and the activity of stars.

She diverted her focus, but still has her eyes on STARS. XD They're sparkly, shining, shimmering, splendid (LOL, Aladdin!). One star, the nearest to her planet, (the one that says 'hi' to the world before Manila Bay swallows it at around 6 P.M.) hides from everyone's sight just as when the others appear to have a party in the night sky.

This planet is special. But come to think of it, what if there are other worlds that exist? That's a childish question, no? Let me be the 8-year old girl once again. It's kinda hard to argue with her. XD

New layout because I can't give myself lame excuses anymore for being lazy, uncreative and unproductive. The original plan was a Christmasy layout with red and green and a header with any Christmas-themed photo series of the idol groups I like. But see, I couldn't even stand too much of the poinsettia combination (because color theorists say "Red and Green shouldn't always be seen.") and I'm feeling really serious about peace, love and hope lately. So I came up with what I'm feeling and thinking. I FEEL UNEASY.

Inspired by Komm, süsser Tod \ 甘き死よ、来たれ (Amaki shi yo, kitare) by Hideaki Anno, it's the closest song I can identify myself with. Sometimes, I consider myself a failure, and sometimes a success. There are times I feel powerful, but I also realize how powerless I am. Just a little explanation: 自分が傷つくのが、怖い。- I'm afraid of being hurt. , だから、自分を傷つけるの。- That's why I hurt myself , 優しさはとても残酷 。 - Tenderness is very cruel , 無へと還ろう･･･ - Let's return to nothing. LOL, their expressions seem to fit the lines. Hahahaha. This might be the first in a series, 'cause the song has so much to say.
( big black backpack. )

from Yoko Ono official:

Ahohohoho, I thought I might only post 6 pictures, but I'm showing 14. Yeah right, I was able to take a few stolen moments (borrows the phrase from Resha) before my camera committed suicide. Heeheehee.

This isn't an epic post so there's not much to expect from it. (: And I'm in a hurry 'cause there's a lot of work to be done. ):
( ahohohohohoho )And what else?  I DIDN'T SEE THE SHIGE-SQUEALERZ. (Wait, I did. But they didn't proceed to the meetup itself.) 
THE FACT THAT THERE WERE ALMOST NO HSJ FANS AMUSES MYSTIFIES ME. HOW STRANGE. Ahohohoho. |P

 resha_ueda , nekoism , ionnesaysrawr , hwangak , ravyn_ashling and the rest, THANKS FOR MAKING THE DAY FANTASTIC AND GHEI. It was a great chance to unwind, have fun, and see each ther before our own work start to eat our lives and tiemz again. *chuembraceglomps*