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03 August 2014 @ 12:20 am
     I'm not the kind of person who loves and romanticizes the rain. In fact, I hate it with a passion. Although I'm quite a hikikomori and unsociable at times, the rain just doesn't make me feel good.   
     Recently, I was able to catch up on some fandom news. Before, I'd be so specific with fandoms, but now, I just lump everything in a single category. Some news are bad/sad and some are good, and I have to mention (indirectly) the sinking of my biggest ship. XD I found it quite devastating since that 'ship' was what I held onto throughout my college years and even until before it sank. Technically, it's a sunken ship even before I knew it, because I was late with the news and it's practically impossible to imagine them together because they've parted ways a long, long time ago. A few weeks ago, I decided to become active on Twitter again and switched to a spare account I made 3 years ago. I don't know how I'll describe the switch or the whole concept of my new account, but it's basically my hideout from Facebook (and I'm going back here from time to time too!) I a friend how much that 'ship' means to me and although it's a sunken one, I wanted to salvage the relics and bring it to the Smithsonian in my heart of hearts. XD I never learn.
     Another depressing fandom news, a couple of hours ago, my favorite female idol group, Berryz Koubou, announced their 'indefinite hiatus' which will start next year. ): They themselves don't want to call it a 'disbandment' because it's heavier and with more finality to it. Maasa said that they have been discussing it for about a year- what other things they want to pursue or experience. I admit that I haven't been following them the way I used to during the 'peak' of my blogging years since 2011, but I sometimes read their blogs. Yurina is still the most special member for me, but collectively, Berryz Koubou is a very special idol group that reading the news made my heart waver. It's not in the same intensity as Ya-Ya-yah's but it's painful when you become aware of the uncertainties once 2015 begins.
     I just don't want that to happen to w-inds.. I don't care about Johnny's Entertainment anymore. I graduated from high school, I finished college, and I want to get my graduate diploma too with w-inds. still there. They're very special. I'd say it this way, Ya-Ya-yah is something sacred that I put in a special vault, while w-inds. occupies my heart without having J.E. as competitors. And speaking of w-inds., lately, I have 'rediscovered' Hanamuke, or rather, I'm now in a different situation wherein Hanamuke has a different level of meaning to me. In 2007, I loved the song because I'm fond of ballads, and just like Yakusoku no Kakera and shiki, I considered them in the same category of songs that are good to listen to. After 7 years, there's something in Hanamuke that reminds me of the sunken ship that brings me back to 2007, a year I consider a turning point. Hanamuke has reached the point that it's not just another ballad or song I love to listen to, but it's a time capsule, a message about how it is difficult to say goodbye. I reserve the use of the term "vocal pyrotechnics" only for Keita for very obvious reasons. <3 And with the topic of goodbye, from the movie 'Kanojo wa Uso wo Aishisugiteru', the song of the fictional band CRUDE PLAY called "Sayonara no Junbi wa Mou Dekiteita" has become a favorite of mine. Asaka is the fictional drummer of the band so that got me into watching the movie and even fangirling CRUDE PLAY (Miura Shohei's voice is gold, btw). Kameda Seiji (ex-Tokyo Jihen and prolific music producer-composer) is truly a genius for creating that song. "Sayonara no Junbi wa Mou Dekiteita" is a song about being always prepared to say goodbye. Well, it's not always easy, isn't it? I listen to the song when it's quiet and I turn up the volume for emphasis and self-torment...it's so beautiful.The melody is perfect for the predicament of the song, which matches Miura Shohei's vocal performance.
     So there, I end this entry with w-inds.' live performance of Hanamuke.
Current Music: w-inds. - ハナムケ
12 October 2012 @ 12:07 pm

as of Dec.01,2009: SEMI-PUBLIC

To you who's reading this:

It's by the workings of destiny that made you encounter my journal. Maybe, through curiosity, maybe by a little yearning that we'd still be friends again. However, it is your choice to proceed. I have nothing much to offer you. It's either we've met or we haven't met yet.

THE THIRD IMPACT- if it's sweeter the second time around, then third time's a charm. This journal was created out of my desire to grow. It's also a way to know the people who are following you and to meet new friends. I call it the SUMMER SWITCH 'cause I change my journal every summer.

I'd be happy to let you know you're a part of me.

PRESENT INCARNATION- ordinary. I was once a fan of a famous Japanese talent management agency exclusively for males. I once loved them boys wearing all the colors in the wheel. The sparkly and shiny idol world was once the subject of my admiration. Not so long ago, the fairy tale ended. I need not elaborate on that. 

1. The most important thing, do not add me if your reasons are shallow. I'm very serious although it's not that obvious.
2. I'm not a fan of a certain 10-member group. (: And if you happen to have something in mind, don't proceed if you feel we might not get along well.
3. Fellow fans of a disbanded 4-member group are very much welcome. YES, THE BEATLES!
4. Those who have had direct contact with me or were formerly my friends can freely add me or remind me to add them. 
5. Comment here. 

Current Location: at home
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Ya-Ya-yah - Himawari no Melody
17 June 2011 @ 06:50 pm

When I realized what 'awesome' meant....

I was like.....

And as they strut their stuff....

I was seriously in tears.

My feelings as of recent. Not totally jumping into the anigif bandwagon. (:

23 December 2010 @ 06:03 pm
Current Mood: cynicalcynical
Current Music: Susan Boyle - I Dreamed A Dream
30 December 2009 @ 03:13 pm
Is this for real? I just made one last year, and now..... XD TIME REALLY FLIES AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I tried writing corollaries to the hypothesis on time whether it is just an illusion or the illusion is reality. But I failed because I realized that the "me" from seven years ago is much capable of coming up with something more sensible. 1.) it might involve Mathematics | 2.) the 20-year-old has forgotten the useful scientific terms necessary to come up with a corollary | 3.) scientific names are now- e.g.: Altus vox {Shibutani Subaru} | 4.) the frequency of petit mal episodes. And then, there were people who friended me on Facebook, just to send me messages asking if I practice fortune-telling and divination (they've heard and I have no idea who told them!). They even asked me for my address, and were serious about going for a consultation. So I made another account. >_<; FYI: Idda De Jesus is no fortune-teller. Aura reading, anyone?

The introduction above has only 20% relevance to the real post. In my 8 years of being a fan, I can say that this isn't the best year (what do you call 2007?), but things I wished for like 'more exposure for my favorite people' or 'more fanservice' came true. And if I were that fortune teller they're looking for, I wouldn't get excited about stuff going on in my fandom. Without any further ado....

WHY "OH YAY!"? Find out....
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E.T.A.: I knew it. D; You know what I'm talking about. I worked on this post for 5 hours and checked my f-list after I was done. Tsk tsk.Maybe I should try to listen to Yuma and his henchmen. I liked Snow Prince, btw.
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: t.A.T.u. - How Soon is Now?
24 December 2009 @ 11:37 pm
This isn't the best or even the gayest Christmas for me, but still, I have to celebrate because of the people I've met, the places I've been to, the things I learned and everything that makes the season worth celebrating for. Thank you!

I made a X'mas card. Lookie. XDCollapse )

Happy Christmas!!
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Current Music: KinKi Kids - Another Christmas
23 December 2009 @ 11:15 am
Now I want to go and visit Easter Island someday....just because of this. The view is just like you're from another world, even without leaving Earth. I know that when a picture captures a certain moment and it reveals something that hasn't been seen before, the probability of that moment to never happen again is bigger than the probability of it to repeat itself. I'm this astronomy buff since pre-school so I love anything that has something to do with planets, galaxies and otherworldly beings (I consider myself an alien because I hate the word "conform").

I had lots of astronomy books and the facts were sometimes redundant. That was the time of heavy and hard bound encyclopedia my mother invested on because she wanted me to become bright. XD The daughter did very well in Science, History, Linguistics, Arts and Literature and was even considered highly athletic, BUT FAILED MISERABLY IN MATH. The number of Jupiter, Neptune and Saturn's moons changed, Pluto's status was changed to that of a large dwarf planet (Aww...) or a minor planet and some more discoveries of the latest stuff used in watching the skies and the activity of stars.

She diverted her focus, but still has her eyes on STARS. XD They're sparkly, shining, shimmering, splendid (LOL, Aladdin!). One star, the nearest to her planet, (the one that says 'hi' to the world before Manila Bay swallows it at around 6 P.M.) hides from everyone's sight just as when the others appear to have a party in the night sky.

This planet is special. But come to think of it, what if there are other worlds that exist? That's a childish question, no? Let me be the 8-year old girl once again. It's kinda hard to argue with her. XD
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: Morning Musume. - Osaka Koi no Uta
10 December 2009 @ 02:59 pm
New layout because I can't give myself lame excuses anymore for being lazy, uncreative and unproductive. The original plan was a Christmasy layout with red and green and a header with any Christmas-themed photo series of the idol groups I like. But see, I couldn't even stand too much of the poinsettia combination (because color theorists say "Red and Green shouldn't always be seen.") and I'm feeling really serious about peace, love and hope lately. So I came up with what I'm feeling and thinking. I FEEL UNEASY.

Inspired by Komm, süsser Tod \ 甘き死よ、来たれ (Amaki shi yo, kitare) by Hideaki Anno, it's the closest song I can identify myself with. Sometimes, I consider myself a failure, and sometimes a success. There are times I feel powerful, but I also realize how powerless I am. Just a little explanation: 自分が傷つくのが、怖い。- I'm afraid of being hurt. , だから、自分を傷つけるの。- That's why I hurt myself , 優しさはとても残酷 。 - Tenderness is very cruel , 無へと還ろう・・・ - Let's return to nothing. LOL, their expressions seem to fit the lines. Hahahaha. This might be the first in a series, 'cause the song has so much to say.
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Current Location: at home
Current Mood: dorkydorky
Current Music: Lady GaGa - Bad Romance
09 December 2009 @ 06:39 am
from Yoko Ono official:
Find others here. It's a meaningful message to the world. For those with a war against others and a war against themselves.
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: lonelylonely
14 June 2009 @ 11:11 am
Ahohohoho, I thought I might only post 6 pictures, but I'm showing 14. Yeah right, I was able to take a few stolen moments (borrows the phrase from Resha) before my camera committed suicide. Heeheehee.

This isn't an epic post so there's not much to expect from it. (: And I'm in a hurry 'cause there's a lot of work to be done. ):
ahohohohohohoCollapse )And what else?  I DIDN'T SEE THE SHIGE-SQUEALERZ. (Wait, I did. But they didn't proceed to the meetup itself.) 

 resha_ueda , nekoism , ionnesaysrawr , hwangak , ravyn_ashling and the rest, THANKS FOR MAKING THE DAY FANTASTIC AND GHEI. It was a great chance to unwind, have fun, and see each ther before our own work start to eat our lives and tiemz again. *chuembraceglomps*


Current Location: at home
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
Current Music: 柴咲コウ - 「君の声」